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Crap! I slept with Seamus. I mean, we got drunk. It was so awkward after our kiss and then we had these delicious drinks and then I wake up naked with him. And then... God. I'm a horrible person. I can't believe this. God. And now he'll probably tell people and then George will find out. Or I have to tell George, but I don't know how to explain it. I can't make it seem okay. It doesn't seem okay to me in anyway.

I feel so dirty. Why would I sleep with someone when I really like someone else? Why!? I know I like George... alot. But then, it was like Seamus thought I was so sexy. And then it just got out of hand. I'm such a bitch. And then I lied to Seamus. I'm really a bad person. I'm just spiraling out of control. I'm not sexy. I'm not sexual. I'm cute. My head hurts. I'm a huge b-word. I hope George doesn't hate me.
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I don't want you to be mad at me.